I just don't get it.

Today my mother and I got into an arguement. It was over something so stupid! I have the responsiblity to the soccer team which  means I do scoreboard for the game and travel with them to the away games. BUT my mother doesn't seem to understand that I can't just drop that and do something else. Yesterday she told me not to make any plans because I had to drop my sister off for something softball. To ME, that's not quite fair. She knows I help with the soccer team and have since the begining. I understand family comes first, but it makes me feel awful that I am missing this soccer game when I promised. I guess we can agree to disagree about the situation.

It's too much...

My mother and I are in this funny stage right now. She is starting to try to all of sudden become this super strict mom. I am not even sure why. I've never had complete freedom, but I've never had a million rules. I'm not sure what her deal is, but it's kind of upsetting me. Yeah, I know I am going away soon off to college, but that doesn't mean she should try to control every little thing in my life right now. I may not be a parent, but one thing I do know is that mom needs to understand that I need to learn things the hard way. She can't also be there holding my hand or yelling at me if I mess up. I won't learn anything in life if she does this. Maybe when I finally go off to college and have responsibility and rules of my own, I will see what she is trying to instill in me. But for now, it is just way too overbearing and it's pushing me away.

Stress

I don't know about being a parent from a parents point of view, but I do know about parenting from what I see with my parents. They stress and sacrifice so much for their children. A prime example is my mother. She is a mother, and a full time employee. If anyone knows about stress, it's her. Even though she is under so much stress, she never fails to put a smile on her face and make us her priority. That in itself is a true blessing. ♥

Sisters♥

Rules are rules

Maybe it is a parent thing, but when it comes to boyfriend and girlfriend rules... they can be pretty strict. Some parents say that the couple must stay in the living room, and some are less strict about it and let them go into the bedroom. My parents are the inbetweeners. They are okay with us being in the same room, but we have rules that we must follow. We have to have the door open, lights on, and are not allowed on the same bed. I used to hate these rules and ask myself why I had all these rules. I mean I am 18 years old. But after awhile, I realized why they are the way they are. I wouldn't want my teenage daughter to be alone in the same bed and in a dark room with a boy. It is a parent thing. Teens and parents think on two different levels. Every teenager will fight and rebel against what their parents are gonna say, but in the end... they find out they are always right and it is usually when the teen that swore they were right has a teen of their own swearing that they're wrong.

Still mom's little girl♥

It didn't hit me till today how real this whole graduation is becoming. We recieved our cap and gown today during lunch, and I'll be honest, I about cried my eyes out. It seems so crazy how time is flying by. Seems like yesterday I was a freshman in high school. Scared of everyone and not sure where to go. Now I am a senior in high school with only 9 weeks left of high school! It's just a little bittersweet. Not only for me, but for my mother. She has been there since my first day of school and still is with me now. That's such a blessing. I just know that when she sees my cap and gown and especially with me in it, she is going to have a break down and we will probably both cry together. I know that this can't be easy for her. I am growing up. I'm graduating High school. Moving out of the house to live in a dorm. Going to college to pursue my dream of being a special eduation teacher. It's all such a huge change for her and it's my job as her daughter to hold her hand through all this change and tell her that I am still her little girl. I will always be my mom's little girl... No matter how old I am. I guess it's true what they say... life is about change and how you embrace it. I guess my Mom and I will have to learn this and live by it.

My mommy ♥

I never fully realized how blessed I was till yesterday. Wanna know how I came to realize this? well, My mom asked me what my plans were that day. I told her I would be picking my little sister up from softball practice. The rain was really hard and mom was worried like crazy about us both. She told me to call her as soon as I got there and as soon as I got home. Now I know that may seem little and like it doesn't mean anything, but it means so much to me. She is so caring and a lot of people don't have someone in their life that is like that to them. She worries about me because she loves me. A mother worries for the ones she loves the most. My mother is my rock, my bestfriend, my everything and without her, I'd be nothing. ♥

open your eyes

There is one thing that parents need to understand, and if they did... the world would be a little better. The one thing that they need to understand is that NOT ALL TEENAGERS ARE UP TO SOMETHING. I know as a parent, they've been there and done that. I'm sure they know all the tricks and sneaky ways. But honestly, some teenagers are the ones you have to worry about. But the others shouldn't be punished for the mistakes of others. An example of this is when your parents hear about a teen being up to something and they automatically assume that you'll end up doing it. In the end it is all about trust and the trust that they have in you. After all, trust is everything.

Family love

Arguments within a family can tear a family apart. Not like a little disagreement, but actual fights that cause tears and pain. A family is supposed to be people who are there for you when no one else is. Those people who know you like the back of their hand. But a huge arguement can destroy that bond that is always supposed to be there. There are ways to avoid destroying a family over something dumb. One way is to not let the little things build up to be something worse. That is the worst kind of anger. A good way that families can avoid something like this is to have meetings when something happens. Letting out your feelings and being open is a key to happy family.

Love at first sight.

This may be off topic, but today is a big day. Not only is it Friday, but it is also my 5 month anniversary with my boyfriend. The way we met was kind of funny, yet romantic. We'd always flirt and mess with eachother. We'd like eachothers stuff on instagram, twitter and facebook. It is kind of like we wanted to talk, but no one would make the move. After getting very impatient, I finally got the guts to message him and that's when it all begun. We began to hang out more and more and feelings began to get more real between us. It was no longer flirting, we actually wanted to be with eachother and stay loyal to one another. Phillip asked me to be his girlfriend on September 21st, 2013. We just got out of the movies and were standing by the car. He kept kissing me and hugging me and telling me how beautiful I was. Finally he looked at me and said, "You like me?". Of course I said yes, and that's when he asked me. These 5 months have been amazing and i'm so thankful to be dating my bestfriend. No matter how mad we get at eachother or how much we may argue, we love eachother more than anything. We'd fight for eachother through everything. He has my heart 1000% and I wouldn't trade him for anything. Ah, young love.

Power of prayer

Well, Something hit me yesterday and it made me realize a lot. That thing was how much stress my parents are under in their life. They have to deal with me going to college, bills piling up, and  both of them working at plants. Sometimes I feel that they need a break, away from us and everything. I can't do much because I am only a 18 year old senior in high school with hardly any money so I can't just give them money. All I can do is pray for them and know that God is going to help them through our tough times. The power of Prayer is stronger than people think.

A mother's love.

So much crazy stuff has been happening here lately. Between the snow storm that kept people trapped inside and the earthquake, the stress of everyday life isn't any easier. Some people have many different ways they deal with stress. Some good and others aren't good at all. Drinking, drugs and other negative outlets are how some teens and adults choose to relieve their stress. I personally don't turn to any of those. There is one bulletproof way to just forget all the stress and things in my life that cause trouble in my life. That one way is to hug my mom. I just text her or tell her I need a huge hug and she always provides the best ones that no one else could compare to. I'm so thankful that no matter how old I get, my mom is always there to give me the hug I need. A mother's love is the best.

My bestfriend ❤️

Mothers love

Parents will always worry, it doesn't matter if you're 15 or 50. It's just a simple fact. My parents are the prime example of this. Yesterday my mother had a mommy moment on me. I had to drive to Atlanta and her worry level was on a whole new level. Not only because I was driving a dangerous road that is full of danger, but the worst part of it was that it was at night. Any parent would worry about a situation like that and I don't blame her. She loves me and wouldn't want anything bad to happen to me. That's love from a mother and it doesn't get any better than that.

It's the best...

   A fact that is 100% true is that parents give the best advice. I mean yes, friends and other people can offer good advice, but the fact of the matter is.... it won't compare to your parents. They've been where you've been and know things that you don't even know yet. Parents know all your tricks and know what is right for you. That is why they can tell you from experience about anything.
   My mom and I had a really good talk once. It was about college, boys, and everything you could think of. I was very hesitant to talk to her at first because I thought she could never relate to me. Surprisingly, we had way more in common than I thought. After our conversation was done, I walked away closer to mother and knowing more than I knew before. If you ever get the chance to just sit down and have a great talk that will make a huge mark on your life, do it. If not, you'll regret it one day.

honestly...

Like I really don't see how parents can handle a teenager. Just in high school alone, I can't stand the childish, annoying and dumb things that a lot of them say or do. I myself probably am the same way but just from my observation, parents deserve an award. You have so many different types of teenagers. You have the chilled teen, the athletic teen, the smart teen, the dumb teen... but one thing they all have in common is how dumb they are. It's just in their nature. Being a part sure is a lot of work and sometimes it'd be nice to have an instruction manual.

family

See this? It is a happy family. Not all families are portrayed in this way, they come in different shapes, sizes and colors. Not every family is made up of 4 members. You can have one parent, a step dad/mom, a foster parent, or even a gay couple. Happiness in a family doesn't depend on who's in it or how many members. It has to do with the love and care that is shared!

Looking back

Looking at my baby pictures makes me feel so old. I am now 18 years old and time has flown by so fast. I graduate in May and attend the university of my dreams right after. It's so unreal! It's crazy to think that life as I know it is going to change. After Lander I hope to find the one I am going to marry and settle down... Just thinking about that makes me smile because I know that I was once a little girl who had mommy and daddy by her side through everything and if I ever needed anything, they were there. Now I am about to go off to college and be on my own, no help from mommy and daddy. I am a big girl now and it's sad.

God gained an angel.

On Sunday I lost my great grandmother. It is a huge loss. She has played a major role in my life by doing many things for me and making a million memories with me. When someone passes to go with the one true lord, they are at peace. And that is how I feel about My granny. She was the most unselfish, caring, loving, and helping human being I've ever known. She didn't let being used by other low life people and her health bring her down or even effect her relationship with jesus christ. Of course she'll be missed by everyone that she has met and loved but it brings peace to me and my family to know that she is no longer suffering, being used, or dealing with what this evil world has to offer. She is with the lord and has a huge smile on her face. I love you granny and I'll miss you more than anything.

Family is everything.

Christmas time is over now, but that doesn't mean stop giving. I don't mean giving presents and money, but what I mean is care and love. Not enough people give that out now a days. As the holidays keep going on through the years, the meaning of Christmas is slipping away. Back then it meant family time, and making memories. Now it means spending money and out doing one another. What is really important during the holidays? FAMILY! Parents and children bond in this time. Proof of that is when children that are moved off or in college come back home for holidays. Memories are important for the holidays. Love one another and spend all the precious time you can with your family. Be a wonderful parent and a grateful child and make the holidays one to remember!