I just don't get it.

Today my mother and I got into an arguement. It was over something so stupid! I have the responsiblity to the soccer team which  means I do scoreboard for the game and travel with them to the away games. BUT my mother doesn't seem to understand that I can't just drop that and do something else. Yesterday she told me not to make any plans because I had to drop my sister off for something softball. To ME, that's not quite fair. She knows I help with the soccer team and have since the begining. I understand family comes first, but it makes me feel awful that I am missing this soccer game when I promised. I guess we can agree to disagree about the situation.

It's too much...

My mother and I are in this funny stage right now. She is starting to try to all of sudden become this super strict mom. I am not even sure why. I've never had complete freedom, but I've never had a million rules. I'm not sure what her deal is, but it's kind of upsetting me. Yeah, I know I am going away soon off to college, but that doesn't mean she should try to control every little thing in my life right now. I may not be a parent, but one thing I do know is that mom needs to understand that I need to learn things the hard way. She can't also be there holding my hand or yelling at me if I mess up. I won't learn anything in life if she does this. Maybe when I finally go off to college and have responsibility and rules of my own, I will see what she is trying to instill in me. But for now, it is just way too overbearing and it's pushing me away.

Stress

I don't know about being a parent from a parents point of view, but I do know about parenting from what I see with my parents. They stress and sacrifice so much for their children. A prime example is my mother. She is a mother, and a full time employee. If anyone knows about stress, it's her. Even though she is under so much stress, she never fails to put a smile on her face and make us her priority. That in itself is a true blessing. ♥

Sisters♥

Rules are rules

Maybe it is a parent thing, but when it comes to boyfriend and girlfriend rules... they can be pretty strict. Some parents say that the couple must stay in the living room, and some are less strict about it and let them go into the bedroom. My parents are the inbetweeners. They are okay with us being in the same room, but we have rules that we must follow. We have to have the door open, lights on, and are not allowed on the same bed. I used to hate these rules and ask myself why I had all these rules. I mean I am 18 years old. But after awhile, I realized why they are the way they are. I wouldn't want my teenage daughter to be alone in the same bed and in a dark room with a boy. It is a parent thing. Teens and parents think on two different levels. Every teenager will fight and rebel against what their parents are gonna say, but in the end... they find out they are always right and it is usually when the teen that swore they were right has a teen of their own swearing that they're wrong.

Still mom's little girl♥

It didn't hit me till today how real this whole graduation is becoming. We recieved our cap and gown today during lunch, and I'll be honest, I about cried my eyes out. It seems so crazy how time is flying by. Seems like yesterday I was a freshman in high school. Scared of everyone and not sure where to go. Now I am a senior in high school with only 9 weeks left of high school! It's just a little bittersweet. Not only for me, but for my mother. She has been there since my first day of school and still is with me now. That's such a blessing. I just know that when she sees my cap and gown and especially with me in it, she is going to have a break down and we will probably both cry together. I know that this can't be easy for her. I am growing up. I'm graduating High school. Moving out of the house to live in a dorm. Going to college to pursue my dream of being a special eduation teacher. It's all such a huge change for her and it's my job as her daughter to hold her hand through all this change and tell her that I am still her little girl. I will always be my mom's little girl... No matter how old I am. I guess it's true what they say... life is about change and how you embrace it. I guess my Mom and I will have to learn this and live by it.

My mommy ♥

I never fully realized how blessed I was till yesterday. Wanna know how I came to realize this? well, My mom asked me what my plans were that day. I told her I would be picking my little sister up from softball practice. The rain was really hard and mom was worried like crazy about us both. She told me to call her as soon as I got there and as soon as I got home. Now I know that may seem little and like it doesn't mean anything, but it means so much to me. She is so caring and a lot of people don't have someone in their life that is like that to them. She worries about me because she loves me. A mother worries for the ones she loves the most. My mother is my rock, my bestfriend, my everything and without her, I'd be nothing. ♥